“Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment, until it becomes a memory.” (Dr Seuss)
Rather groggily and attempting to muster up some degree of enthusiasm to start another day, I forced my eyes open and reached over to quell the annoying hum. A new day! Hopefully not a day like yesterday I hastily thought, alongside a memo to self to at least begin the day by being thankful. As quickly as I thought about the many things I was thankful for; remnants of yesterdays failings and discouragements seemed to wrap themselves around the recesses of my mind, shutting out any attempt to at least begin well!………..Angry words spoken in the moment, discouragements that threatened my attempts to find the positives in being confined for yet another week to home, overwhelming feelings of inadequacy and I could go on. Glimpsing some of the amazingness of how everybody else seemed to be coping and amazing things they were doing in this time of lockdown just made the huge cloud I was feeling under even denser.
A memory flashed across the recesses of my mind, invading the now tangled web of thoughts, feelings and questions; a memory of three little sisters dressed in homemade orange dresses, edged with white daisies singing at a harvest festival half a century ago. The one on the right was a little girl who struggled (and still does) with a stutter, dreaded being in front of an audience and opening her mouth and today is writing this. The other two are her very eloquent, gifted sisters. In later blogs I will share about some of the stepping stones that have crisscrossed around the world to where I am today and only possible because of the truth in this little song they sang:
“God sees the little sparrow fall, it meets his tender view; if God so loves the little birds, I know he loves me too. He loves me too, he loves me too, I KNOW HE LOVES ME TOO!”
In that moment, the closest I can come to describing what transpired as I replayed the memory and felt the impact of “I KNOW HE LOVES ME TOO” is when dense fog lifts and the sun shines through! I am now ready to begin the day!
